Posted by: tgonzales | July 26, 2013

Where Do I Begin?

I want to start off with saying thank you to all of you who have been so concerned about my absence. I just want to assure you that I have not given up on my blogging or crocheting. My hands and wrists have been hurting me so bad that sometimes I feel like crying. Especially when my Mom asks me how I’m doing, I can’t seem to tell her how bad I’m feeling anymore. That question takes me back to my childhood days when I would hurt myself and I would be fine until my Mom asked me if I was ok. Then the tears would roll and she would hold me in her arms and hug me until I stopped crying. I remember one instance when my Dad and brothers had just put up a barbed wire fence around our property. My Mom told us not to get near or try to go through the barbed wire fence. I must have been about 8 or 9 and I still remember hiking my leg up to go through the barbed wire fence when the back of my leg right where the knee bends caught one of those barbs and slashed it open so bad that I couldn’t stop the bleeding. I held myself together into the house and the bathroom only to find that we were out of band-aids. When I realized I was going to have to tell Mom about the cut I knew I was in trouble but at the same time my leg was gushing blood with every step. When I asked her if we had any more band-aids she asked what happened, so I showed her my leg and of course I couldn’t help but cry. She didn’t get mad, she didn’t spank me; she just got a bandage and held me until I stopped crying. I’m not sure what brought that up, maybe it’s because I still feel like running to my Mom for a good cry? Anyway I feel a little better now and that’s enough about that. If you are still here reading I would like to share some of the things that have been going on since I left off.



















I got my hair cut. You may say SO what? But this was no ordinary haircut and color; yes I confess I have my hair colored, I know you know that I don’t have naturally purple hair. Ha! Ha! Anyway after much deliberation with myself and my hair dresser we decided that it was ok to go gray, but we would add a little splash of color to my bangs this time (purple of course). I told her to cut it very short so that I could get on with the graying process. My attempt to take a picture of my graying hair, then John came into the room and took a picture of the crown of my hair. Anyway, I am a little scared on one hand and excited on the other. I’m looking forward to being chemically independent when it concerns my hair. 🙂

Brandy, Jennifer’s friend since first grade got married; Megan and Jennifer were in the wedding party, we took Mom along. John’s face was priceless when I asked him to go back inside to get my package of Kleenexes. (why do you need a Kleenex look?) Brandy was a beautiful bride and I was honored to be a part of her wedding day and evening.

I made a pillow insert for the Cute as a Button granny square pillow that I won in a contest in May from Laura.

KS My Stitch crochet guild challenge for the month. Everyone who wanted to participate drew 3 crayons from a bag and we have to use at least 50% of those 3 colors in a pillow that measures at least 9 inches. I drew pink, orange, and black. I finished mine but will have to wait to show you after our August monthly meeting.

I have been crocheting scarves to sell at the Hesston Kansas Barn Sale on October 5, 2013.

I did some modeling for jewelry for a catalog (no pictures of me yet). These are two beautiful young ladies that were modeling with me. Thank you Danielle and Lystra for making the evening so much fun.

Mom, Jackie, John, and I went out for breakfast. Of course I wanted to do a photo shoot and I still have a hard time understanding how hard it is to get a good picture with only three people. Anyway John, Jackie, and Mom sure do look good and for some reason I can’t seem to take a good picture without the glare on my glasses, or maybe it’s the photographer? Anyway I feel like my hands are feeling a little bit better every day. Thanks again for all the love and prayers sent my way. I love you all!


  1. Tamara, so glad to know your hand are feeling a bit better. You must be experiencing some terrible pain. You have completed so many crochet items-how id it that you can wirk through such pain? Please do try to rest those hands.

    I love your haircut and think it is great for you to go natural (with just the right amount of purple!) I hope I can be as brave as you when the time comes.

    Have a great weekend!

    • Hi Merri!

      Thank you so much for stopping by to comment. I just wanted to let you know that when my hands start hurting so bad I do stop to rest. And thanks for the sweet comments about my hair. Have a great weekend and smooth sailing to you!

      Love and Hugs, Tamara

  2. So sorry to hear you are still in pain. Have you gone to a doctor to get it checked out? Maybe they can give you something to help relieve it for a bit. It looks like you are still crocheting? I totally understand that you don’t want to stop, but when you are near tears because of the pain you might want to rethink that idea. Yay for you on going chemical free with your hair. I’m sure you will look great. The other pictures are wonderful as well. Please take care of those hands…they are the only ones you get!

    • Hi Jeanne!

      I have been to the doctor and they say that it is just from overuse. My chiropractor said to take Vitamin B6 and that would help. I am going to purchase some next paycheck, hopefully that will help along with stretching exercises and taking breaks. Thanks so much for the wonderful advice and the sweet comment about my hair. My husband still doesn’t believe that I will go through with it. 🙂 Have a great weekend.

      Love and Hugs, Tamara

  3. I realized yesterday that I hadn’t seen you blog and wondered if everything was ok with you. I’ve been through those hand/finger/wrist/arm hurts with my crocheting too. Actually right now I’m in a slump of lost mojo and have had it for a while. I suppose it will come back eventually. Right now I’m not going to worry about it. Your hair looks wonderful. I have been gray for years and I love my hair. We have earned it at our age. :o) Glad things are ok with you.

    • Hello Katherine!

      Thank you so much for stopping by to check in on me; for understanding about my pain and my gray hair. I love the look of gray hair and I bet you look beautiful with it. I hope you get your mojo back and are inspired by something soon or maybe it’s not time yet. Anyway, have a great weekend and enjoy.

      Hugs, Tamara

  4. I was merrily scrolling through your photos when I saw the cushion cover and thought to myself, “I made one like that!” Then a second later I had to scroll back up as I realised it was the one I made!! I love the stripy insert you made 🙂 Sorry your hands and wrists are so painful still, hope they continue to get better so you can go back to creating marvellous crochet goodies!

    • Hi Laura!

      Oh I’m so glad you recognized the photo of your cute as a button granny square pillow. I just love arriving home from work to see my little blue pillow sitting there on my country blue couch. My husband even commented and said that he really liked the blue pillow. :)Thanks for the kind words about my hands. Have a Happy Weekend

      Love and Hugs, Tamara

  5. some beautiful photos here, thank you for sharing. Love your hair, looking forward to seeing how you manage the “switch” 🙂 Hope you keep the purple, though, that’s kind of your trade mark 🙂
    Have a lovely weekend, rest your little paws. xxx

    • Jill!

      I love you my friend! 🙂 John doesn’t think I can do it; I hope I can prove him wrong. Besides that it sure saves me money.


  6. Hi Tamara,
    I have problems with my hands and wrists at times too, sorry to hear you are. I bought a pair of handeze craft gloves, they are a little expensive, around $10 a glove ($20 a set), they seem to give enough support to really help, but I can still crochet or cross stitch with them on. I hope these will help you also, hugs, Mary in NY

    • Hi Mary from New York. Thanks so much for the information, I really need to check into some of those craft gloves. My sister gave me a pair a long time ago and I gave them to my daughter because I didn’t need them. And thanks for stopping by to comment. I hope you have a wonderful weekend. Hugs, Tamara

      • LOL, I hear you, it’s when you give something away that you don’t need, that you need it, hope they help, hugs, Mary in NY

  7. Welcome Back Tamara!!
    So good to see your post, yet you know we do not want you hurting in order to do so. Be cautious, sweet friend.
    The Hair: You probably do not even know for sure how much of your hair is grey, right? I think you are wise to ‘go natural’ … much healthier for you. I do not color my hair. It is still blonde – with white thru-out. My sister & sis-in-law color theirs, have for years, & most likely will forever. Interesting ‘cuz they are both health-conscious as far as what goes in their tummies & what goes on their skin.

    Such a *great* photo of you 4 generations of ladies. 🙂
    As soon as I saw the photo of John, I thought: “What’s the evil eye for?” Now I know. LOL! … I think the pic of Jackie peering behind John is funny. 😀
    ‘;’/// …. That is a message from Emma. HaHa!!

    Goodness! Pink, orange, & black — of all colors for you to have grabbed! Looking forward to seeing your completed project with those colors.
    I sure do like the Cute As A Button pillow cover .. and your insert!

    Now you take good care of your hands & wrists, Miss Tamara. We know that even when you do not blog, you are thinking of us as much as we are thinking of you. Just remember: It’s the thought that counts. LOL
    Love you much, and SO enjoy you!!
    Hugs ~~ Miss Kat 😉

    • Oh Miss Kat!

      I love hearing about what you think of each and every thing I talk about and you always have such good advice. Thank you for being here and for loving what I do. Love you too! Tamara

  8. Oh Tammy, I am so sorry you are still having trouble with your hands. Continue to rest them as much as possible. I can’t tell you how much you inspire me by going chemical free. I’m a brave soul but not quite brave enough to go grey. Maybe you will be lucky enough to not have much grey like your Mom. Megan looks so cute in her wedding attire. Amber told me how cute her dress was. Glad to see a picture of her in it. Love the pictures of you, your mom , and Jackie. And John cracks me up. Love you girl. sw

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